OMG OMG OMG OMG I am so excited!

As I sit here and munch on refried beans, I can barely contain myself with excitement.  First off, the move to Orlando may not happen like we wanted.  I dont have enough time to go into it, but somethings happened and I will come back at a later date to explain.

So without further ado, I am now a big sister!!  OMG I am so excited about this.  My father was separated from my mom when I was a baby.  He ended up getting another woman pregnant.  My parents got back together and then eventually divorced when I was in 5th grade.  It was right after they divorced that dad told me that I had a sibling.  Because the other woman wouldnt contact him after the fact, he had no idea if the baby was a boy or girl.  After becoming an adult, I began searching and searching and searching.  Dad has even hired PI's to no avail.  Well, he told me that Sunday he talked with the husband of the woman whom had given birth to my sibling.  In all of my searches, I had listed on a genealogy board that I was looking for this woman and her child.  The child found my post on Monday and emailed me.  I have a brother!!!  He is two years younger than me.  This is so surreal.  I have talked to him by email several times and have received pictures of him.  He is my father's child because he looks just like my dad when dad was his age.  OMG OMG OMG OMG  I am ecstatic.  I cant contain myself. lol 

Ok, need to go.  Got lots to do.  Promise, I will come back and give details on the Orlando situation.

lunch

Getting ready for our garage sale this weekend. Pray we make a lot of money! Here is a picture of my lunch that God had blessed me with.

I'm gonna make you an offer you cant refuse!

What a day!  My lil guy is no longer a first grader!!  We had a pool party at one of the homes of his school mates.  He had a great time.  There was food all over the place.  The only protein they had was hotdogs.  So, I had a hotdog without the bun.  I also had a small slice of watermelon.  The host kept trying to push more food on me.  I guess they are use to fat people eating more.  Cake, ice cream, chips…. You name it, I think they had it.  Finally I just came right out and told them that I do not eat a lot since I have had lapband surgery.  “Oh, ok” was the reply and she soon walked away.  Was it something I said?

Anyway, continuing on from yesterday.  What was this offer that we could not refuse?  Brent and our friend worked together at Emeril’s in Orlando for over 3 years together.  I was on the phone with the wife on Friday and told her (unloaded in tears) about everything that happened.  Very calmly she told me to pack our backs, pick up our son from school and head to Orlando because we (all 4 adults) had some things to talk about and decide. 

So we said ok.  I packed our bags quickly, picked the munchkin up from school and was Orlando bound.  Then I remembered that I forgot to pack my pj’s.  Oh No!!  Had to stop and spend $$ on pj’s that I forgot since I cant sleep naked.  Not that I would anyway since our son still comes into our room in the morning.  After our detour, we finally made it to Orlando.  Here our friend is, an executive chef with Cheesecake Factory, and his wife prepares fish sticks and frozen pizza for us.  LOL  LOL  LOL  I love it!!  She told me that he would be horrified if he knew that she was not cooking for us.  I nibbled on a few fishsticks and had salad. 

After he got home – with a slice of cheesecake (damn him, lol) – we had our talk.  He told Brent that he knows a lot of people in other restaurants and could have a job for him immediately.  They proposed that we move into their home with them and their 3 kids RENT FREE!!  Yep!  I joked around all weekend and told them that we couldn’t do that.  But they kept asking.  Well, not really asking, but telling us that we were moving in. 

On our way home we really started to discuss it and decided it REALLY does make sense.  After they take out what they are taking from Brent’s paycheck, we will not have money to pay bills and live on.  I called our friends back and told them that we would take them up on their offer, but only if Brent could get a job.  Mike, our friend, immediately called his contacts (I was on the phone with his wife) and had a job lined up for Brent within minutes.  Brent is going to meet with the executive chef of another restaurant on Monday.  Brent has worked with him before also, and they both kinda remember each other.  If all goes well, and their personalities are compatible, then Brent will accept the job (HE HAS NO CHOICE OR I WILL HURT HIM – LOL). 

It looks like within the next month we will be moving to Orlando.  This is great for us because it will allow us to save a lot of money and will give us the type of support system that we miss by not being near family.  Right now, all we have are a few people that we have met, but not like family.  Our friends are like family.  Their words were, “Come up here and let us show you love.  We know you have no family near so we will be your adopted family.”  Love, love, love them!!  Oh, and in case you were wondering if I ate the cheesecake he brought home – only 2 bites!!  Moderation!  Before, I would have gobbled it up in 2 seconds.

Get outta my mind!

Decisions, decisions!  What do we do?  It is so hard trying to keep my eating under control during this stressful time.  I want pizza, ice cream, hamburgers, etc, etc.  You know, all the bad things for you.  I know this is mental.  I know it is stress.  I pray I get a handle on it soon. 

Well, yesterday when my hubby went into work, they had a nice, lovely letter waiting for him to sign that stated that he AGREED to their terms (even though he didn’t) and that if his employment ended (fired or quit) then he is still responsible to pay back the money and they will take us to court and make us pay their attorney fees, etc.  He told his HR rep that he was not comfy signing without his attorney to look at it.  She wrote him an email and told him that if it was not signed by 4pm, then they would take his paycheck.  Yeap, all of it. He wouldn’t get anything.  Nothing to live on or pay rent.  Oh My Gosh!  He had to sign it.  I told him to go to his supervisor and inform her that he was very stressed and under duress when signing it.  Oh how I hope this does not turn into a legal fight with them. 

On the other hand, we have friends in Orlando that we like to stay with when we go there.  These friends are the bestest in the whole world!!  The whole story starts years ago when I first met my hubby.  We had just started dating and I wanted my friend to meet him.  I really wanted her opinion of him.  She thought he was the greatest.  While we were out having fun that night, my hubby called his friend and invited him to join us.  Then you can guess what happened: boy meets girl, etc.  They fell in love and got married.  My hubby had played matchmaker and somehow knew that they would hit it off.  Our son and their daughter were born exactly 2 weeks apart.  During this whole saga with Brents job, they made us an offer we could not refuse. 

Ok, gotta go pick up my lil one from school in a minute.  I will be back tomorrow to tell more about the too good to be true offer.  Have a great day everyone.

another weekend at disney

I am so glad we already have year tickets or we would not be able to come here. It is already HOT! Lol That's to be expected. Following up with a prior post - I do not think I will have a problem with getting my water in today. We met up with our friend from Chicago and her boyfriend that we are just meeting. We are going to spend the whole day with them and then we are going to spend the night at our friends house. The friendship we have with our Orlando friends is a story for another day. We love them dearly and try to spend time with them often. I do hope everyone is enjoying their weekend . Here is a picture of my view right now.

He's looking for a new job!

Well, my hubbys job wants him to pay back the money.  They refused to accept responsibility for any wrongdoing.  They admitted that within the past two years they have had another issue exactly like his!  Sucks for us!!  They would not work with any of his suggestions on how to recoup the money (tuition reimbursement, etc).  They were trying to get $300 per paycheck from him.  He became upset, but never showed it.  They told him that if we REMOVE all of our insurances (health, dental, vision, health care savings) that this is where the $300 could come from.  WHAT??  We need insurance. They told him that since he was upset he could go home, but they expected to resolve this today.  Oh, and they AUTOMATICALLY took his PAID TIME OFF (vacation pay) to pay back some of this money.  I dont think that is legal.  We will get through this.  He told them that he was head of household and that his wife does not work due to our son and his medical issues.  So they decided to spread it out a little further and make it $150 per paycheck.  Still something we can not afford.  He told him the most he could afford is $25 per paycheck.  So, we have tried to call attorneys to see if what they are doing is legal, but they all want $200 consultation - that we dont have.  He called out today and told them that he was just too distraught to come in.  He is sitting beside me on his laptop putting his resume on different websites, calling staffing companies, etc.  I dont know what he is going to do next week.  It's not that we dont want to pay the money back - we just cant afford to on their terms.  What to do, oh what to do??!!?!

Today is D day and WATER!!

Well, just to touch on the $$ issue, my husbands job finally will meet with him today to resolve the overpayment issue.  We do not have any extra moneys to live from, so hopefully they will go easy on him and agree to like $10 a pay check.  It's hard when you only have one person working - one pay check - just to get by.  But this was a choice of ours with our son.  We wanted one parent to be home with him.  

Ok, so I have been thinking about this drinking a whole "ocean" of water every day.  Just what does it do for us?  How good is it really?  Why do we need a boat load of water in one day?  I started searching the internet and this is what I have come up with:

1. It helps you lose weight. I’ve noticed that I definitely get full faster and am taking in less food without feeling deprived. This has been an easy way to kick up my weight loss efforts.
2. It’s easier to be hydrated for exercise. Since I am always drinking water, I start my exercise routine already hydrated and don’t have to take in as much water to stay on top of my hydration. When I am well hydrated, I exercise better! I don’t feel sluggish and it takes longer for me to feel tired. I did not expect simply drinking water would be so beneficial to my exercising.
3. Your skin texture improves. I’ve read that your skin gets plumped up and dewy because you are hydrated. I don’t know about that, but I am definitely breaking out less and generally having fewer skin problems since I started drinking more water.
4. Drinking water helps maintain digestive health. I have definitely noticed that water helps with digestion, and (this is probably an overshare) helps to keep you “regular”….with your “evacuation” processes by making things easier and more frequent. 
5. Drinking water helps flush out toxins. Although most people refer to the benefits of drinking water to flush out toxins that come from our food and the environment, the best proof I have is how water helps to prevent hangovers and minimizes the effects of alcohol. This is probably more of a hydration effect than a toxin-flush effect. I noticed before that whenever I had a glass of wine at night , I used to feel pretty sluggish and drained during my run. Now that I am taking in extra water, I can have a glass of wine and still feel fine for exercise the next day. ***This one is not mine - it is one that I read and thought that it made sense since it talks about flushing toxins - not drinking.  Sorry if it offends anyone***
6.  Speaking of exercise, I definitely get more exercise as a result of drinking water. This is because of all of the bathroom breaks I need to take during the day. I feel like I am constantly walking to the bathroom.   If I wore a pedometer, I bet this would add a couple of thousand steps to my weekly tally.
7.  Taking in more fluid helps reduce fluid retention. Like many women, I retain fluid and get some swelling around the time I menstruate. However, I’ve noticed that I am now less swollen since I began drinking water.
8. You have more energy. I don’t know why, I just know that I feel more alert and have fewer days when I hit the afternoon slump since I started drinking more water.
9. You save money. Bottled water is definitely cheaper than most other drinks, and tap water is free! Most people in the US have access to good, clean, safe tap water. If you want to learn about the quality of your local tap water, the Environmental Protection Agency monitors and publicly reports the quality of tap water throughout the US.
10. You know the location of every bathroom. Have I mentioned how much you go to the bathroom drinking all of this water? Let me just say that a benefit to the popularity of Starbuck’s is you are never very far from a bathroom. If you are stuck, with no Starbuck’s in sight, a good back up is a nice hotel. Most of them have bathrooms somewhere in the lobby.

 So, some of these are mine, some are not.  But I thought it was important to look at some of the benefits of water.  I am STRUGGLING to drink my water.  Yesterday, I only got 3 - 8oz glasses of water in.  Today, I am trying really hard to get more in.  This is my struggle right now.  I do not have a problem with my calorie intake, only my water.  How can I get my water intake to improve.  I found this on someone's website and thought I would post it here.

• Carry a bottle
  A lot of people find it useful to get a big plastic drinking bottle, fill it with water, and carry it around with them all day. I like to keep a glass of water at my desk, and I drink from it all day long. When it's empty, I fill it up again, and keep drinking.  **STACY COMMENT> I do keep an 18 oz water bottle filled with crystal light that I carry with me most of the time.  I have another in the fridge waiting to "go" after I have finished my first one.  END COMMENT**
• Set a reminder
  Set your watch to beep at the top of each hour, or set a periodic computer reminder, so that you don't forget to drink water.
• Substitute water
  If you would normally get a soda, or an alcoholic beverage, get a glass of water instead. Try sparkling water instead of alcohol at social functions.
• Filter
  Instead of spending a fortune on bottled water, invest in a filter for your home faucet. It'll make tap water taste like bottled, at a fraction of the price. **THIS IS ME> We bought a britta pitcher and fill it up and make crystal light from it in a separate pitcher.  I constantly try to have filtered water in the britta pitcher.  I do not like the way water taste from the tap, so this is easier on my taste buds!!  OK END OF STACY COMMENT**
• Exercise
  Exercising can help make you want to drink water more. It's not necessary to drink sports drinks like Gatorade when you exercise, unless you are doing it for more than an hour. Just drink water. If you're going to exercise, be sure to drink water a couple hours ahead of time, so that it will get through your system in time, and again, drink during and after exercise as well.
• Track it
  It often helps, when forming a new habit, to keep track of it -- it increases awareness and helps you ensure that you're staying on track. Keep a little log (it can be done on an index card or a notebook), which can be as simple as a tick mark for each glass of water you drink.

I do hope that everyone is ok with the copied info.  Once again, I just thought it was important.  If I am struggling with it, how many of you are too?  How do you handle getting all of your water in (without feeling like you have turned into an ocean)?  Any tips or advice that can be shared would be great.

O-M-G I had.....

ICE CREAM yesterday!!  UGH!  I just couldnt help myself.  It looked SOOOOO good and it was just calling my name.  Hello, my name is Stacy, and I am a ice cream addict.  Yeap, that's me.  I could keep away from other things, but dagnabbit, put the ice cream in front of me and I start to sweat, my mouth starts to salivate, I start to tremble. lol Ice cream is my weakness.  Get thee away from me ICE CREAM!!  I must say that I have maintained -  no loss no gain.  I am still at a 45 lb loss.

I do hope everyone had a blast yesterday.  We grilled huge hamburgers with swiss cheese and fresh basil (from my garden) stuffed in them.  I was only able to eat half of one and I have the other half tonight for dinner.  Leftovers tonight!! We got hotdogs for our son because I knew he wouldnt eat the hamburgers.  He is picky!!

Ok, got a gripe.  Be mean to me - I can take it!  Be mean to my son and you are going to have a momma bear on your hands. We raise our son to treat others the way he would want to be treated.  He just wants to play with everyone and be happy.  Of course, as an only child (and almost 7 yrs old) he wants to play what he wants to play!  I am working with him on that.  I have been informing him if he wants to have others play nicely with him, then he needs to be nice also.  One little girl who is 9 yrs old (we will call her Haddy) will come over and play with him (and usually try to eat my cucumbers when I bring a snack out).  Today, I had not eaten a whole lot so I told her no to the cucumbers.  She then walked away and told my son that she couldnt play today!  HELLO?!?!??!  So, the only reason you will play with him is because I give you a couple of cucumbers?  So, she walks off and three other boys (ages 8-11) came over to play with her.  We live in a duplex and our drive way is shared by our family, Haddy's family and another family.  They sit where my son can see them.  Of course, he wants to play with them.  I barely heard her, but I am pretty sure at one point she told my son to "Go away, we dont want to play with you!"  They are entitled!  I get it.  They dont have to play with him.  But he has some medical issues which makes it hard for him to understand that they do not have to play with him.  I have even told Haddy about the issues and she was aware of this when she was ugly to him today.  He is very sensitive and cries really easy when his feelings are hurt.  I got mad.  I told him that they do not have to play with him.  He was so distraught that he wanted to come in, so inside we came.  Our other neighbor was pulling up and I told him what went on.  He is aware of the issues with my son.  He went down there and jumped on all three boys (b/c they were tearing his garbage can up) and put a big ole  guilt trip on Haddy.  He told all of them, including Haddy, not to come any where near our houses since my son and his daughter are too little to play with. 

So, what would you do in this situation?  I have always been nice to the kids around here.  I feel like I should treat them just as Christ would treat me.  It would not have hurt them to include my son in some type of play with them.  I know that they didnt want a mom-figure around.  Several of the little guys swear when they do not have a parental figure around.  I am just beside myself.  My lil guy has his feelings hurt and came in and cried for the longest because "nobody wants to play with me!"

Happy Memorial Day!!

Happy Memorial Day everyone!  Have fun with your BBQ's, swimming, or just enjoying your family today.  We have a few chicken breast on the grill and might go to the beach later! 

I am so upset!

I am so upset right now.  So is my hubby.  He started a new job a few weeks before my surgery in Feb.  From day one they overpaid him.  He went to his trainer and his supervisor and asked if it was correct.  They both assured him that his check was correct.  He has been paid the same way since day one.  Today, he was able to pull up the check online (he gets paid Fri) and see what he will be paid.  It is about $300 less than what he has been paid every pay period.  So I find the discrepancy and we called HR to talk to payroll.  The woman started to freak out, told me that he had been grossly overpaid and we would have to pay it back, but "dont worry, we will set you up on a payment schedule."  WHAT?!?!?!  We told her that this was not our mistake and that we shouldnt have to pay it back.  She said, "Well, if you were underpaid you would expect us to pay."  We can barely afford rent and bills as it is (I am a stay at home mom).  If we have to pay back over $3000 (in payments) we wont be able to afford rent and other bills. 

My hubby has an appointment with his supervisor to see what can be done, but it looks like we are going to have to pay.  :( 

On a banded note, I tried to eat a chicken breast last night and it hurt!  I dont know if I am taking bites that are too big, or if I am eating too fast.  Suggestions would be great here!!  How do I know if it is just restriction, or what?  Ok, I'm off to figure out what to do about our crazy situation.  Have a good day everyone.

where am i today?

Where am I today?  I will give you a hint.... I am hot! Sweating my rear off! Great exercise though. Have a great day!

Updates and NSV!

Hello!  Good day!  Thank God it's FRIDAY!! lol  It has been one of those weeks.  After being sick, Zach finally went back to school on Tuesday.  What a blessing that was, cause he was driving me up the walls. lol  Bless his lil heart, he is so ADHD it is not funny.  We have to jack him up on adderall to make him behave through the day and then he doesnt sleep at night.  Well, the meds are not what keeps him from sleeping at night.  He has always been like that.  He was sneaking out of the house (going over baby gates with cowbells and unlocking doors) at 2 yrs of age.  Yeap, he's my lil escape artist.  We have to medicate him to make him sleep at night.  I think we finally found the right combo because he is finally starting to get REALLY consistent sleep.  On top of what the DR prescribes him, we have also started to give him sleepytime tea at night.  He doesnt care for the taste, but I have told him that he must drink it - no options!

So, earlier in the week I posted that I was at a 45 lb loss.  I went earlier in the week to get a fill in my band.  I went from having about 5ccs to have 6 in my 14 cc band.  I tried to eat a piece of chicken breast last night and must have had too big of a bite because it hurt like a mofo going down.  For about 20 minutes I hurt so bad.  I walked, I drank, I sat!  Finally it passed.  SMALL BITES!!!  Must remind myself.  I can not eat like I use to.  I guess that is something we all eventually go through.  It's so hard though.  It's hard to change the way you once did things for your whole life.  I knew when I started this that it was life changing, and I am committed to do it, but sometimes - subconsciously - I just slip right back to that old habit.

I made my hubby go with me to my DR appt.  He was not there for my first fill, so I wanted him to see exactly what I go though when I get it and how it doesnt hurt.  He was so into it.  He's so funny.  He really should have been a doctor because this type of stuff just fascinates him.   So, at the end, after my fill, he looks at the doctor and ask, "What do I need to do to have this surgery?"  I almost fell off the table.  He is not morbidly obese, but obese non-the-less.  His BMI is about 39.  I was so happy that he wants to take the steps to do the surgery.  I told him when I was first starting on this journey that he should do it too.  Our insurance at the time paid for it.  Our insurance now - we just found out - does not!!  So, if he wants it, he is going to have to fight the insurance company to get it.  Another girl he works with did the same, and they finally approved her surgery about 2 years ago.  Stay tuned for updates on hubby!!

Ok, so the NSV!!  I have been getting in and out of my car and totally not paying attention.  But yesterday, when I went to pick Zach up from school, I noticed something I had not noticed before.  I dont know how long it has been this way, but it is and I am excited because of it.  MY STOMACH NO LONGER RUBS THE STEERING WHEEL IN THE CAR!!  Yeap, every time I  would get in the car, my stomach was rubbing all over the steering wheel.  Now - I have about an inch between me and the wheel.  How did I not notice this?  So, all my peeps, what is your NSV for the week?  I would love to hear from all of you!!  It encourages me and keeps my spirits up. 

Sick Sick Sick

Oh my gosh!  My little one and I have been sick for over a week.  He finally went back to school today and I feel like I am in the population of living people again.   I had every intention of writing sooner, but, well... when you have the flu you kinda dont want to take your head off a pillow.  Mixed with a 6 yr old who is equally as sick is not a good thing either.

Ok, so now that we are all better, I can give an update to my weight.  I am now officially 295 lbs.  I have lost a total of 45 lbs since starting this journey.  I am in TWOTERVILLE!!!  YAHOOOOOOO!!! 

I also wanted to wish all the mommies a Happy Mommies Day, even if I am late wishing it!!  Ok, gotta clean the house now.  You know, my job is DOMESTIC GODDESS!!  lol

Have a great day everyone and I will work on writing another post soon.  Thanks for stopping by.

Hold on!!!

I am working on a new post!  I just finished final exams, so I have been a little busy!  There will be a new post coming today or tomorrow.  Sorry  I have not posted lately.

Is it Spring, or is it Summer??

Spring is here!  Ok, well it feels more like summer here in central Florida.  We were at Sea World over the weekend.  Yes, we are theme park junkies!!  We have year passes for Sea World and Busch Gardens that we are going to let expire because they just cost too much to keep up every month.  Anyway, as we first started walking into the park, going toward the sting ray tank, I saw a group of beautiful flowers that I just had to take a picture of.  This is the picture.  I was reminded of the beauty, the fragile state that these flowers could be in.  I was reminded that I was just like this beautiful, fragile flower.  I could appear to be perfect with all my stems and petals shooting upward in the correct position - but I am not.  I am flawed.  I am fat.  I am a food addict.  I am a lot of things.  But in my journey I am trying to let go of the need to be perfect and just be ME.  It's ok that I am flawed, fat and addicted to food because I can do things to correct this about me.  This is my journey and I am on the road to self discovery and correcting all the wrongs that were instilled in me as a child.  There is so much hurt there from the abuse my mom suffered from my ex-stepfather to the addictions that both of my parents have battled and are still battling.  It's no wonder that I am the size I am and addicted to something.  Easter is especially hard for me because I want all the chocolate.  Those danged ole Cadbury Eggs are my biggest weakness, followed by Reese Peanut Butter Cups.  I have purposely not weighed myself because I do not want to see if I have gained any weight.  My will power is still not there.  Guess I need to work harder on it. 

Not the best picture, but me in the shade trying to get out of the heat.

Ok, enough about all that.  So we went to Sea World over the weekend and had a great time.  It was hot.  So hot, that we had to go into a couple of places to get out of the heat a few times.  I do not know why, or if it has something to do with my small pouch, but I was becoming sick to my stomach a few times in the heat.  The last few times we have been to Disney, my back has not hurt.  This time it did, but I think it was due to pms.  If not for that, I would have made it around the parks pain free.  I also didnt have patience for others.  That was all pms related  -  and I know it.  It seems like when people go on vacation, they catch a case of vacation brain.  Does anyone know what that is?  Have you ever seen it in action?  I have seen it too many times.  Some (not all) people just dont think, or care to pay attention, or have common courtesy when they are on vacation.  I know what a lot of people are thinking.  "We paid good money to come here, I will act however I want!"  I totally get that.  I paid good money too and I just dont want to be ran into, talked about, or anything else that could be ugly while I am at the theme parks.  One time at Universal's Islands of Adventure, I took my then 3 yr old into the bathroom and this dude, on the phone, came into the womens restroom, opened a stall and let it go - right there in front of women and girls.  OMG!!  He had a big ole case of VACATION BRAIN.  I pushed my son into another stall and shut the door.  About a minute later I heard this dude say, "oh, my bad!" Wash his hands and then walk out. lol  Well, I just got into a rant about vacation brain,  sorry! 

This squirrel was either trying to sneak attack us during lunch, or had a huge case of VACATION BRAIN!

I was excited to see that the Shamu show was reopened.  They had also remodeled the staging area.  Not a lot, just different colors.  But I was really sad with the show.  Before, the whales would jump straight out of the water several times.  This time they only did it once.  They no longer allow the trainers in the water since the horrible death of one last year.  I understand that, but the show left me wanting more!

I was on a nature kick while there.  I wanted to take pictures of flowers for some reason.  So I will leave this post with a few of the pictures that I took.

What a week!

Sorry there has been no real update!  I have been preparing for my finals for this week and next week.  These last few weeks of classes always takes up so much of my time.

HAPPY EASTER!!

I hope to check in soon with an update.

Happy Birthday to me!!

Today is my birthday!  I cant believe I am 38!  I do not feel like I am approaching 40.  How old is 40 suppose to feel though?  I refuse to get older.  I have said often that I stopped aging at 21. 

So, what am I doing for my birthday today?  HOMEWORK!!!  Yuck!  We celebrated over the weekend with a trip to Disney.  More on that to come later.  This morning has not been the best though.  My husband stopped up the sink in the kitchen and "forgot", so I had to unstop it.  One plus is that I took a 30 minute nap. lol  I havent done that in over a month.  Hope everyone has a great day today!

Those bad, bad, bad, evil lil things!

Oh My Gosh!!!  This is just wrong!  These little delectable bites of chocolate are just pure EVIL!  Why, why, why do I LOVE them so much?  Why do I CRAVE them like I do at Easter time?  Cadbury Cream Eggs are my downfall.  They just are.  I remember when they came out on the market (yep, I am that old).  My mom always loaded my Easter basket with all types of chocolate.  It was the one of the few times out of the year that I was allowed to eat a lot of chocolate.  Mom always watched what I ate.  She was really good with trying to get what was the new “hip” candy at that time.  She saw the little blue, red and yellow foil  wrappers that looked like eggs and thought that I would like to try them.  Shame on you mom!  Lol, I now have a full blown addiction to these little bites of EVIL.  Yes, I say addiction.  I can go into a store at Easter time and go around the Easter candy and my mouth starts to water at the thought of popping one into my pie hole.    I have never been able to walk past without buying them. 

So this year, I was doing really good.  I have already bought my son’s Easter basket stuff and walked past the Cadbury Eggs without grabbing any.  Was I tempted?  Sure!  But my weight loss is more important than these little chocolate eggs.  Wouldn’t you know it…… my neighbor brought over Cadbury Egg minis and Cadbury Carmel Egg minis.  She remembered that I love them and thought I would like some.  GGGRRRR!  Sabotage!  She knows that I have had lapband surgery!  She is still in the mindset that I can eat whatever I want.  I have tried to tell her that I cant!  I tried to give them back to her, but she left them on my coffee table.  I cant resist them.  I trembled as I opened up the little container of the crème eggs.  I unwrapped one and plopped it into my mouth.  Oh my it taste SOOOOOO good.  I know I shouldn’t have done it, but I did.  Then I did it again.  Yep, I had another.  I had to physically take them and throw them away so I would not eat them.  I do not want to go back to my old way of eating.  

So, is there anyone else out there reading this that struggles with a certain food?  If so, what is it and what have you done to overcome it?