O-M-G I had.....

ICE CREAM yesterday!!  UGH!  I just couldnt help myself.  It looked SOOOOO good and it was just calling my name.  Hello, my name is Stacy, and I am a ice cream addict.  Yeap, that's me.  I could keep away from other things, but dagnabbit, put the ice cream in front of me and I start to sweat, my mouth starts to salivate, I start to tremble. lol Ice cream is my weakness.  Get thee away from me ICE CREAM!!  I must say that I have maintained -  no loss no gain.  I am still at a 45 lb loss.

I do hope everyone had a blast yesterday.  We grilled huge hamburgers with swiss cheese and fresh basil (from my garden) stuffed in them.  I was only able to eat half of one and I have the other half tonight for dinner.  Leftovers tonight!! We got hotdogs for our son because I knew he wouldnt eat the hamburgers.  He is picky!!

Ok, got a gripe.  Be mean to me - I can take it!  Be mean to my son and you are going to have a momma bear on your hands. We raise our son to treat others the way he would want to be treated.  He just wants to play with everyone and be happy.  Of course, as an only child (and almost 7 yrs old) he wants to play what he wants to play!  I am working with him on that.  I have been informing him if he wants to have others play nicely with him, then he needs to be nice also.  One little girl who is 9 yrs old (we will call her Haddy) will come over and play with him (and usually try to eat my cucumbers when I bring a snack out).  Today, I had not eaten a whole lot so I told her no to the cucumbers.  She then walked away and told my son that she couldnt play today!  HELLO?!?!??!  So, the only reason you will play with him is because I give you a couple of cucumbers?  So, she walks off and three other boys (ages 8-11) came over to play with her.  We live in a duplex and our drive way is shared by our family, Haddy's family and another family.  They sit where my son can see them.  Of course, he wants to play with them.  I barely heard her, but I am pretty sure at one point she told my son to "Go away, we dont want to play with you!"  They are entitled!  I get it.  They dont have to play with him.  But he has some medical issues which makes it hard for him to understand that they do not have to play with him.  I have even told Haddy about the issues and she was aware of this when she was ugly to him today.  He is very sensitive and cries really easy when his feelings are hurt.  I got mad.  I told him that they do not have to play with him.  He was so distraught that he wanted to come in, so inside we came.  Our other neighbor was pulling up and I told him what went on.  He is aware of the issues with my son.  He went down there and jumped on all three boys (b/c they were tearing his garbage can up) and put a big ole  guilt trip on Haddy.  He told all of them, including Haddy, not to come any where near our houses since my son and his daughter are too little to play with. 

So, what would you do in this situation?  I have always been nice to the kids around here.  I feel like I should treat them just as Christ would treat me.  It would not have hurt them to include my son in some type of play with them.  I know that they didnt want a mom-figure around.  Several of the little guys swear when they do not have a parental figure around.  I am just beside myself.  My lil guy has his feelings hurt and came in and cried for the longest because "nobody wants to play with me!"

Happy Memorial Day!!

Happy Memorial Day everyone!  Have fun with your BBQ's, swimming, or just enjoying your family today.  We have a few chicken breast on the grill and might go to the beach later! 

I am so upset!

I am so upset right now.  So is my hubby.  He started a new job a few weeks before my surgery in Feb.  From day one they overpaid him.  He went to his trainer and his supervisor and asked if it was correct.  They both assured him that his check was correct.  He has been paid the same way since day one.  Today, he was able to pull up the check online (he gets paid Fri) and see what he will be paid.  It is about $300 less than what he has been paid every pay period.  So I find the discrepancy and we called HR to talk to payroll.  The woman started to freak out, told me that he had been grossly overpaid and we would have to pay it back, but "dont worry, we will set you up on a payment schedule."  WHAT?!?!?!  We told her that this was not our mistake and that we shouldnt have to pay it back.  She said, "Well, if you were underpaid you would expect us to pay."  We can barely afford rent and bills as it is (I am a stay at home mom).  If we have to pay back over $3000 (in payments) we wont be able to afford rent and other bills. 

My hubby has an appointment with his supervisor to see what can be done, but it looks like we are going to have to pay.  :( 

On a banded note, I tried to eat a chicken breast last night and it hurt!  I dont know if I am taking bites that are too big, or if I am eating too fast.  Suggestions would be great here!!  How do I know if it is just restriction, or what?  Ok, I'm off to figure out what to do about our crazy situation.  Have a good day everyone.

where am i today?

Where am I today?  I will give you a hint.... I am hot! Sweating my rear off! Great exercise though. Have a great day!

Updates and NSV!

Hello!  Good day!  Thank God it's FRIDAY!! lol  It has been one of those weeks.  After being sick, Zach finally went back to school on Tuesday.  What a blessing that was, cause he was driving me up the walls. lol  Bless his lil heart, he is so ADHD it is not funny.  We have to jack him up on adderall to make him behave through the day and then he doesnt sleep at night.  Well, the meds are not what keeps him from sleeping at night.  He has always been like that.  He was sneaking out of the house (going over baby gates with cowbells and unlocking doors) at 2 yrs of age.  Yeap, he's my lil escape artist.  We have to medicate him to make him sleep at night.  I think we finally found the right combo because he is finally starting to get REALLY consistent sleep.  On top of what the DR prescribes him, we have also started to give him sleepytime tea at night.  He doesnt care for the taste, but I have told him that he must drink it - no options!

So, earlier in the week I posted that I was at a 45 lb loss.  I went earlier in the week to get a fill in my band.  I went from having about 5ccs to have 6 in my 14 cc band.  I tried to eat a piece of chicken breast last night and must have had too big of a bite because it hurt like a mofo going down.  For about 20 minutes I hurt so bad.  I walked, I drank, I sat!  Finally it passed.  SMALL BITES!!!  Must remind myself.  I can not eat like I use to.  I guess that is something we all eventually go through.  It's so hard though.  It's hard to change the way you once did things for your whole life.  I knew when I started this that it was life changing, and I am committed to do it, but sometimes - subconsciously - I just slip right back to that old habit.

I made my hubby go with me to my DR appt.  He was not there for my first fill, so I wanted him to see exactly what I go though when I get it and how it doesnt hurt.  He was so into it.  He's so funny.  He really should have been a doctor because this type of stuff just fascinates him.   So, at the end, after my fill, he looks at the doctor and ask, "What do I need to do to have this surgery?"  I almost fell off the table.  He is not morbidly obese, but obese non-the-less.  His BMI is about 39.  I was so happy that he wants to take the steps to do the surgery.  I told him when I was first starting on this journey that he should do it too.  Our insurance at the time paid for it.  Our insurance now - we just found out - does not!!  So, if he wants it, he is going to have to fight the insurance company to get it.  Another girl he works with did the same, and they finally approved her surgery about 2 years ago.  Stay tuned for updates on hubby!!

Ok, so the NSV!!  I have been getting in and out of my car and totally not paying attention.  But yesterday, when I went to pick Zach up from school, I noticed something I had not noticed before.  I dont know how long it has been this way, but it is and I am excited because of it.  MY STOMACH NO LONGER RUBS THE STEERING WHEEL IN THE CAR!!  Yeap, every time I  would get in the car, my stomach was rubbing all over the steering wheel.  Now - I have about an inch between me and the wheel.  How did I not notice this?  So, all my peeps, what is your NSV for the week?  I would love to hear from all of you!!  It encourages me and keeps my spirits up. 

Sick Sick Sick

Oh my gosh!  My little one and I have been sick for over a week.  He finally went back to school today and I feel like I am in the population of living people again.   I had every intention of writing sooner, but, well... when you have the flu you kinda dont want to take your head off a pillow.  Mixed with a 6 yr old who is equally as sick is not a good thing either.

Ok, so now that we are all better, I can give an update to my weight.  I am now officially 295 lbs.  I have lost a total of 45 lbs since starting this journey.  I am in TWOTERVILLE!!!  YAHOOOOOOO!!! 

I also wanted to wish all the mommies a Happy Mommies Day, even if I am late wishing it!!  Ok, gotta clean the house now.  You know, my job is DOMESTIC GODDESS!!  lol

Have a great day everyone and I will work on writing another post soon.  Thanks for stopping by.

Hold on!!!

I am working on a new post!  I just finished final exams, so I have been a little busy!  There will be a new post coming today or tomorrow.  Sorry  I have not posted lately.